*SPM result*

*230311*

it was a very important day for all SPM 2010 candidates

it was the day i waited for sooooo long

but it was also the day i most afraid to face

well , no matter how , i had to face it bravely

i kept telling myself before taking the result

' however is it , just accept it s that's the FACT '

11a.m in the morning of that day

i saw my class teacher walking towards us

she's holding our result

OH GOSH~! i couldn't even move my legs forward

until this moment , finally i knew how scare was i to face the fact\

well , my friends encouraged me n i moved forward

i saw my name , it written '7As' beside it

what???!!! i GOT it!!! i did really GOT what my mother request!!

at first , i felt so happy until i shouted out

wait~~ i realised that i missed out something

calm myself down n looked at my result clearly

i was right , i got 7As , BUT......

i couldn't get what i had expected n aimed for

i didn't get A+ for my BM n EA

why???!!!! i expected myself to get 6A+ , y couldn't i???!!!

from happiness changed to disappointment

my tears dropped automatically

why???!!! i didn't wanna cry in front of anyone

but i just couldn't control nor stop them

i received calls from my tuition teacher & my siblings

i felt ashamed to answer their call , especially my BM tuition teacher

she put much effort on me

she told me her hearty words before i had my SPM

she told me that i was her 'murid harapan'

she mentioned before that i would b the 1 get straight A+

sigh~ i disappointed her much as i couldn't even get A+ for her subject =/

EA... the only subject i read before SPM

i was the student who got highest mark for this subject in my school

n now i couldn't even get an A+???!!!

how m i going to accept this fact???!!!

i really couldn't accept it

i cried seriously in my friends' hug

they took turn to cheer me up

i even shouted & cried on the field

how stupid did i look at that time

but i didn't care much s i just wanted to express myself

i stayed at school till 4something s i dare not to return home at all

i dare not to face my mother although i achieved what she requested

but i knew that she wouldn't be satisfied with it

i did receive a lot of messages from friends

each time i replied their message to tel them my result

my heart pained for once

but...... i got a message from someone who i didn't expect

because for me , i will only ask friends who are really close to me

n for that person , we are good friends , but not considered s close friend

i did really very surprise to get his message

he was the only one who kept trying to cheer me up

even asked me to find him at parade

but of course , i didn't , as i didn't wish to face anyone

anyway , thanks to him very much =)

finally , i returned home , but hide myself up in my room

i didn't get out from my room for whole day

i cried n slept for whole day

but i told myself~~~

when i woke up on the other day , that's a new starting for me

i had to accept the fact & start moving on to another stage of my life